music – Figuring It Out…

To some people, it will sound stupid and that’s alright. But under no circumstances are you allowed to think that this is even the tiniest bit funny.

So, let’s start with the story.

We had a box full of CDs and DVDs and electronic components and etc. So, I opened it in hopes of finding an external webcam. I didn’t find the webcam but I found something better: Cassettes! And a cassette player with it! (They were my dad’s.)

It was love at first sight.

The player didn’t have any batteries and I resolved to get them. But I had to put that resolve on hold until the next day because no shops were open.

The batteries were keeping us apart.

The next day, when I did get the batteries, my beautiful cassette player betrayed me and didn’t work. I, literally, cried (and before you tell me, no, it’s not wrong usage of literally). All my hopes of the cassette player were dashed. I looked so desolate that my mom left me alone for the rest of the day and the work she would normally assign to me was assigned to my sister. Which didn’t lift my spirits, if you were wondering (which you were not.) My dad told me that we would get it fixed after the pandemic stabilizes.

With our modern age of internet, I searched up how to fix cassette players. I learnt a lot about Cassette players and their workings and cassettes. But since I’m a beginner, I didn’t dare try to fix the player.

No matter how much betrayal you face, you still wouldn’t want to hurt your beloved.

So, moral of the story, never ever ever fall in love with cassette players, they always betray you.

lauv, i love you

do you ever have this feeling when you just realize that you’re still young, you have lots of time left to become who you want to be as a person?

i never had this feeling until… i discovered this new musical artist: Lauv.

so, here’s the deal. when people tell me to listen to a particular song or read a particular book, i don’t. i have this weird obsession with discovering underrated artists. because most of the time, the famous, mind-blowing songs turn out to be utter crap about how cool the singer is or about how much money they have and just crap. so, naturally when people told me to check out Lauv, i didn’t. big mistake on my part. i know i shouldn’t be so judgmental and presumptuous but i can’t help it (it took me forever to read the hunger games). it gives a whole meaning to one bad apple ruins the whole tree or something. i can’t remember the exact proverb.

so, yesterday, once i got frustrated trying to study everything at once, i just went to my room, turned off the lights, turned on the air conditioner, put on Lauv’s first studio album: how i’m feeling. and i was truly surprised when a very silky voice started singing, not about money and how famous he was but about the feelings we all face (at some point of our life) but usually ignore. and i just closed my eyes, and felt the words and the music. and honestly, i felt like i was high or drunk. i was satiated by his words because they were related with this part of me that was so deeply hidden that i didn’t know i had the part in the first place.

his lyrics made me realize that i still have time, i don’t have to compete with myself so brutally, i didn’t have to torture myself for all the mistakes i made because it’s these mistakes that will lead me closer to who i want to become.

his music is not sad, it’s not happy. that’s the thing. the lyrics convey simple truths and the music fits in a very complicated manner. because not all feelings have to be classified as positive or negative, some feelings are just complicated.

i am so thankful i decided to listen to his album just to see if it would resonate with me and it did, more than i expected. i’m grateful to the mechanism of decision making of my brain and random chance that made me decide to put on his album.

i did my best to describe this weird, unintentionally funny, hopeless romantic guy and what he made me feel but i couldn’t capture the exact feelings and vibes, forgive me. but i can guarantee you, you don’t want to miss sensory delights as his music.