Tag: help

I have a vast number of reasons why I haven’t written since May 1st but I’ll spare you all of them.

And I’ve decided upon a routine so, you’ll be hearing a lot more from me. You can expect 4 posts every month.

I honestly don’t know what i’m doing with my life right now.

Note: If you’re studying despite this pandemic, I’m very very very proud of you. And if you’re not, I’m still very very very proud of you.

Yeah, let’s continue, shall we? The only constant things in my life are music, sleep, food, some more music, reading, hating myself for not being productive, wasting my time and impostor syndrome. Oh and overthinking. I’m telling you as much as I love the indoors, this pandemic is so NOT helping my overthinking. It’s becoming worse. And on top of that for some reason I feel like, there’ll be no nature left after this pandemic and all day, every day, I just wanna cry about something that’s not true. HELP.

It feels like the end of the world which would be fine with me but I’ve only visited 1 other country and I haven’t taken enough pictures, made enough documentaries, written enough blog posts, etc. I haven’t immersed myself in art like my heart desires.

And my professional worrying brain, cannot find the energy to invest in school work. (Please note that studying and learning are different things. I hate studying, I love learning.)

I get it. Productivity and using time for doing something useful. But, I feel like all this “productivity” is on a very superficial level. And these days, I’m dreaming of running away to a forest with only bare necessities and living there, amidst nature. (I blame the movie: Into The Wild. WATCH IT. IT”S BEAUTIFUL)

So, there’s my life in the most simplest terms I could find. I hope you’ll excuse me while I walk away into ALASKA in my mind. I think I need help.

(Don’t worry, I don’t need actual help but maybe I do? I don’t know. Tell me in the comments if you think my dreams and my lifestyle needs help.)

Please excuse all the Helps.