pandemic – Figuring It Out…

Don’t tempt me/ I’ll run away to the forest

I have a vast number of reasons why I haven’t written since May 1st but I’ll spare you all of them.

And I’ve decided upon a routine so, you’ll be hearing a lot more from me. You can expect 4 posts every month.

I honestly don’t know what i’m doing with my life right now.

Note: If you’re studying despite this pandemic, I’m very very very proud of you. And if you’re not, I’m still very very very proud of you.

Yeah, let’s continue, shall we? The only constant things in my life are music, sleep, food, some more music, reading, hating myself for not being productive, wasting my time and impostor syndrome. Oh and overthinking. I’m telling you as much as I love the indoors, this pandemic is so NOT helping my overthinking. It’s becoming worse. And on top of that for some reason I feel like, there’ll be no nature left after this pandemic and all day, every day, I just wanna cry about something that’s not true. HELP.

It feels like the end of the world which would be fine with me but I’ve only visited 1 other country and I haven’t taken enough pictures, made enough documentaries, written enough blog posts, etc. I haven’t immersed myself in art like my heart desires.

And my professional worrying brain, cannot find the energy to invest in school work. (Please note that studying and learning are different things. I hate studying, I love learning.)

I get it. Productivity and using time for doing something useful. But, I feel like all this “productivity” is on a very superficial level. And these days, I’m dreaming of running away to a forest with only bare necessities and living there, amidst nature. (I blame the movie: Into The Wild. WATCH IT. IT”S BEAUTIFUL)

So, there’s my life in the most simplest terms I could find. I hope you’ll excuse me while I walk away into ALASKA in my mind. I think I need help.

(Don’t worry, I don’t need actual help but maybe I do? I don’t know. Tell me in the comments if you think my dreams and my lifestyle needs help.)

Please excuse all the Helps.

maybe i can ease your pain…

with this recent pandemic (COVID-19), i can’t help but notice that everybody is sorta always checking the news, a slight bit of hysteria threatens to bubble out, trying to keep the panic hidden. and that’s alright. that’s human.

i just wanna tell, it’s okay to feel vulnerable. but it’s not okay to let it consume you. i have a small list of tips that i’m implementing and i am seeing it work in my house. my mom seems more calm, my sister’s not as paranoid, and my dad’s chill with the situation (as always).

calm down
seriously. don’t panic. chill out
don’t check the news every second (it’s fine)
remember to wash hands every hour
don’t go out, at all (not for exercising, not for anything)
distract yourself
create something
draw/sketch (try it out)
write
cook
dance
sing
play an instrument
watch youtube
make a playlist
do a science experiment (safe)
clean your room
organize the house
so the dishes
sleep
eat
exercise
start an art journal
get on social media (honestly, it works for my mom. i have a love/hate relationship with social media but tumblr is useful for ideas)
read (books, fanfiction, old magazines and newspapers)
paint
watch some tv (i can recommend some addictive shows)
listen to music
solve some puzzles (sudoku is awesome and i love crosswords)
talk
call old and new friends
hone some skill that you never got the chance to
take a crash course
find new, weird hobbies (surprisingly, perfume mixing has become one of my hobbies)
diy
practice gratitude
write a song
make/search for memes and jokes
make your own indoor games
learn a new language
be productive (get some studying/work done)

you could say that these tips are tested and true.

anyways, if they don’t work (everybody is different), you could always talk to me. email me at – the.billionaire.psych@gmail.com